It’s the infinite moment. When you know you’ve made a mistake, and all you want to do is take it back. But you can’t. The damage is done.

………….The infinite moment. It’s disbelief at first. Acceptance slowly washes over you like a rising tide, and as it rises, it gets harder to breathe. You feel like your drowning, but there’s no panic. Because for that airless moment, you really wish you really would stop breathing. You pray for it even. But the moment passes and you inhale. And as seconds unfold, you witness a nightmare come true.

…………..Disbelief makes you question every action you made, every passed event.  You deny the truth like it was a lie, and you review everything in your mind over and over, trying to find something to prove it all isn’t real. Over and over, from the beginning…

Chestnuts, roasting on an open fire

Jack Frost nipping at your nose

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———-Somewhere across the sea, there is a land not many people know about. It is a land plagued with famine, strife, and sickness. Because of this, the people of the land live very sad lives, devoid of any real meaning. People here never smile, and because of them, the sun never really rises.

———-In this land, where orphans are as plentiful as leaves in the fall, there was a boy. He was an orphan like all the others, yet different in one way. Abandoned as a child, the boy did not know who his parents were; he envied the other children who could at least mourn parents they knew about. The boy always wondered if his parents were really alive. Had they died? Or did they just abandon him? Did they even love him? As far as the boy was concerned, he was alone in the world.

———-Then, one night, the boy had a vision. In the dream, he met an angel: she was a beautiful creature, with wings as white as snow, kind eyes, and a warm smile. The angel said to him, “Come join me in the land above the sky.” For once, he felt warm; for once, he felt safe; for once, he felt happy. But then in an instant, her words melted away, and he watched as her image faded into the shadows of his mind. When he awoke, he felt lost, cold, and alone. He needed to find the angel, because he was certain she would love him. He quickly set off on a journey, certain that his desires of warmth and happiness would soon be a reality. [Read more...]

———-Here’s a random point that will be my point. I think it could be said, that really, life is like watching TV. The different things you do are like changing the channel. That’s all life really is, just changing the channel, just changing the channel…

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Maybe the essay is self indulgent. Everyone knows that writing in italics can make what you write seem deep. And if what you’re writing in italics is too abstract, people will speculate a hidden deeper meaning behind it. Remember: abstraction=art.

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